When first confronted with this question I would have said yes, but for myself now I think there are no different types of grief just different stages. Initially I felt so alone that nothing was as important as my grief, only another Parent loosing a child would be the same. I used to get angry with people that compared loosing a parent to what I was going through...It was NOT the same, we expect to bury our Parents it is the natural order of things, but our Children No way! In actual fact, just because it may be the natural order of things does not mean our grief is any less all consuming and devastating. It has taken me some years to realise this and now having lost my Wonderful Dad, it is even more apparent that to loose one you love so much is what hurts the most, not the order in which you love them. How can you measure grief? just because I loved my daughter more than anything in the world, did my Dad's death hurt any less? No. Even though he was ill for a long time and was 87yrs old, I was still shocked to my very core when he died. I had spent 35years of my life with this strong,
benevolent man and loosing him made me feel even more alone. This presented another issue all together "Guilt" I found I wrestled with my conscience if I cried because I missed my Dad, ridiculous as it sounds that was the case, "Guilty Grief" who new????? I will leave this topic for another evening, I will simply end tonight on a saying I once dismissed,
"Grief is the price of Love". In ever loving memory of Owen Ralph De La Motte, a true gentleman.
Lola and My Dad.
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